Tuesday, December 5, 2006
Mind over Heart or Heart over Mind.

I no longer know what to feel, or how to feel. I do know, I don't want to but I can't. :/ It's so painful to be emptied out each day. Rough patches creates friction, and too much of that wears one out. I long to be happy, to truly be. But, I believe and I will.

"Storms cease for us to praise God and they start over again for us to weather with God"

Broken hearts, broken lifes
He will take them all
Tears, Rants, Groans, Pleads
hear us Lord, hear us.
We long to see the light
We are crushed by our sin
Renew us and strengthen us
for hope is faint.

Life's topsy-turvey; like when u shook a bottle of sand vigorously. Water won't dissolve them, it simply twirls and swirls till u're upside down, and inside out.
Help me Lord, help me, help us, help them I pray....

Incessant praying
Sincere devotions
Willed determination
Unwavering Faith
hear us from heaven Lord, hear our prayer.

StressStressStressStressStress!!!
overload and overtaxed.Academics, family dynamics, fading friendships, failing cg, drained minds, exhausted bodies, broken hearts, broken lifes. Give us strength Lord, give me enerrgy.

LET GO AND LET GOD. (((:
Nothing is greater than to leave all your baggages, and hold on to God firmly with BOTH hands. We will never be forsaken, even if our hands slipped, guess what, His soverign hands lay right below us to cushion our fall. How great our God is, how gracious, how loving.

I can really cry all night, to know that I have such a Father looking at me from above. It's a blessing really, can you all feel it? I know who HE is, HE knows who I am-- eternal relationship that never fails. Luv u (:When we do let go, then we can see what God can do what we can't. Miracles, He specialises in them, really/.

It's not in the doing, it's really in the being. Let them go their way, let them fall and learn, but yet we are just there to pick them up again, opening the palm of our hands, waiting for them to come back again. Just wait, God will bring them back. It pains me, but have I not thot how much more it pains God, to see His own creation falter. Ouchh... sobs.... :((((

I thank God for mark n mel for being there for support, comfort n to encourage me to stay in God's will. I cldn't have done it w/t you two, really. Especially that faithful week. Thanks MELIZA for listening, for ur hugggies n smilies. It warms my heart gal!! Thanks MARK for that evening, for the things u shared, for the words that's said, I cherish every bit of it. and not to forget, the tons of hw u helped me with, despite all tt u are gg thru. Thank God for you. xD and of cos, dearest PEGGY, for journeying and weathering thru these with me. We must press on hard together yea? Jiayou!

*Three words i have for you, three words to stick with you, three words not my own. three and here is it. "Jesus wept" too'. Press on, its alright to not feel smiley and show it, its alright to be yourself, its alright to just feel... its alright when it hurts, its alright to even be numb. you're just human after all.' There's no point in psychoing yourself.. you'll just be more tired... the only help would be that.. you go back to God and rely on that. So you dont have to be strong, just be weak and know His strength, that will carry you thru and be manifested* -kor

A million thanks n Goodnight ('',)

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