Wednesday, November 8, 2006
A day of wonders!

WOW, WOW, WOW, wow, wow

A day of wonders A day of miracles
Unspeakable and Irrevocably changed.
Changed Hearts, Changed minds
Renewed Spirit, Rekindled passion.

8th Nov: I'll never forget, hard to/. you really surprise me with ur words! I guess I've underestimated the magnitude of this whole issue :/ you established the links now... i finally understood what's lying beneath it all. once so nicely put, so wonderfully hidden, and now outright exposed- the reality of it all aye?

Then again, it's so precious to have a fren like you; a fren who goes beyond the superficial, a fren who attempts to address hurts, and not afraid to face them at all, a fren who unveils the curtain or e mask and shares genuienly :) your tears, your smiles, I see it all. I sincerely apologise for my insensitivity. Little things, big outcomes, I am sorry :) thru it all, i'm reli deeply touched by the intensity of our frenship :D Thank God for you..my very own *marshmellow* xD Hee.

Down down down... overwhelmed by e blues that overflowed thru e nite. It was hard and tough. I was afraid, for I could not fathom the complications; in fact I rather not. I knew what it held, I knew what I might have to forgo, I didn't wan to let go... :/

Below's a classic example of a person inevitably stuck in a series of unfortuanate event....

Decided to wear my fav pink n white to soften the day, to change my mood, to stay happy. So much for that...guess what?? After my meal, one drink ruins it all. Nice, semi-hot milk tea nicely(notso) made art on my clean, white top, and my light pink skirt. Beautiful..just beautiful.. =x Din even realise I had tea stains on my legs as well?? Bahs... who ask me nv focus, mind was occupied with other stuff. Oh well...it just happened.. :(

So..in a bad state and a short break left,I chiong home. Being darn poor this wk, my onli transport is my short legs and the bus. To make things worse, it was pouring when i got back to sch, which means a longer route to class. I NEARLY got bummed by a car, I NEARLY fell on e water puddles, but I DID broke my toenail and it's painfully removed by urs truly. (bravely in class :/) No details, for I dun wan sick readers. But thank God, I still managed to made it to class ON TIME, in one piece :)

So much for a favourite outfit ruined and a failed attempt at mood change huh, it just happen :/ Simply intensified cos I was already quite a wreck within, in prep for e talk 2nite.. for e things happening ard me and the 1001 things on my mind. Everytime I take a step forward with God, satan tries to pull me 2 steps back; plotting on the vulnerability of man. It's especially easy in such an absurd day, ain't it? BUT thank GOD, he sent ppl to journey with me; be it in e know ornot. Thanks..really :)

Special thanks to peg for trying and kor for cheering me up :D ur sms-es are indeed encouraging, time had wings with you ard... cheerioz ^^ Cf was fruitful as always.. watched a real touching testimony. How vulnerable man get be? How helpless situations can get? How faithful one in distress cld be? How tragedies deviates our focus from God? How sovereign my god is! What a testimony! Love at all cost; easy to say, hard to fulfil it aye? onli God can :)

Ohh, n sorry kor n fel dear to make u all worry..I juz cldn't kip e smile dere then:/ Dinner was ok, cept tt not much appetite. Haha, din noe a line of mine cld make someone choke on their food!?!? Wahaha :p funnily, it did. heh!

9-10.10pm: A God-graced session et KAP. Had a real fruitful talk with peg :) We prayed, we talked, we searched e depths of e issue... Through it all, God gave us a vision, a direction and His Word to meditate on. Thank God for such a mature spiritual sister. We were stumped, to realise we have it all wrong. God asked us Which do we value more? 1.Earthly worldly frenship OR 2.Our relationship with God. Do we dare to please God, at the risk of losing a friend? Are we limiting God's work in her life and interferring with His work, when we try to please a fren? And so WE were enlightened :D Help us Lord to stay strong, stay faithful and use us, use us to share your perfect love with those we love. Help me Lord to get over the thing tt I've always feared...Hear our cries Lord! All glory be to God. See, how the Lord can turn an absouletly rotton day, and put a beautiful end to it in e nite :)

God is a God of wonders, indeed! :D He just had me go thru e day, to make me learn His ways, n I was not alone :) I'm all smiles because of u Lord. Through You, all things are possible and beautiful. luv u xD

2 Corinthians 4:8-9 " We are hard crushed on every side, BUT not crushed; perplexed BUT not in despair; persecuted BUT not abandoned; struck down BUT not abandoned."

Philippians 3:13b-14" Forgetting what is behind and straining toward what is ahead, I press on 2wards e goal to win e prize for which God has called me heavenward in Christ Jesus"

Philippians 4:6-7 " Do not be anxious about ath, but in everything; by prayer n petition, with tksgiving, present ur requests to God. And e Peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard ur hearts n ur minds in Christ Jesus"

Wheee ((: tink i deserve to sleep now..i nid to rest..nites world! :D

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Sunday, November 5, 2006
A great annointing, a lesson learnt.

Hello to all my friends! I uds that this blog has died-ed for nearly a month. I am sorry for this stagnation; echoed here, reverted in reality. My apologies to the many that were worried, and gratitude to the many that were concerned.I didn't want to worry certain ppl, so yea..And I love you, every single one of you :)

Life goes on, but some things flow in a cycle, some things changed and some things don't. How many a times have you wondered about the gift of life? Have you ever cherished it? Have you realised how precious every breath, every utter is? I DID/. through it all, I DID.God is good, he is faithful :)

A simple statement, an unbreakable promise eternally. He never left me, not once, not at all. I let go, He held on, I struggled, He persisted, I surrender, He smiled. Nothing I did wld ever make Him close that door, O wad greater love than this? I luv u Lord :)

My friends, u tink it's any easier for our Lord, our Father to see us tormented, crying ann in pain? Have you ever felt God stroking ur hair in bed, looking at His beaten child, crying His heart out,for He knew that however painful the trials are, it's for your good. Think again, whose pain is multiplied a thousand folds? The Creator or its Creation? It saddens me to think that sumtimes we take that for granted. Beat that, you can't. Only our Father loves unconditionally,yes indeed!

Sometimes, when one is vulerable in the eyes of men,he or she is strong in the Lord
Sometimes, I allow myself to immerse in mellowing, perhapsa little dosage seems to keep me in the know huh?
Sometimes, sorrows lies beneath joy. Can I unearth it? Can I blind myself to see only what's beautiful on the outside, yet knowing it's superficial?
Sometimes, a handshake; a smile; a polite nod; a look in e eye; a simple greeting, is enough to satisfy a longing heart, but it pricks a rational mind.
Sometimes, nono, ALL the time, the Lord stands above all these mere thoughts n emotions that only burdens n wears me out, He delievers, He saves/. :D

Every passing day went round like a carousel, drifted in and out of reality, but ultimately a standstill, God is my alarm clock! God is the author and perfector of our lives, as the chapters continue to unfold in my life.. I await patiently, with love, courage and a mind open ONLY to the truth. I pray.. (",) And my precious friends who are weighed down n burdened, distressed n disturbed, may God's peace be with you, and His joy in you. Prayer works wonders. Trust Me ^^

Yesteraday's infuence
Today's memories
Tomorrow's reunion
Holding u close in thot n prayer as u walk thru this time :)

WOW ----- WORSHIP, OBEDIENCE and WITNESS.
made a loud statement @ 3rd Nov et SAC. God's really there, really present, really working :) Thank God for getting me through worship, was pretty nervous at first, not too much of a stage person, till the ppl ceased in sight and I only cld see God smiling from above. ^^ hehheh.

God sitting on His throne, His ppl below lifted up their voices to worship Him, open hearts, open minds, recieving hands, what a sight!! A 100% God-graced session. xD Thank God for open doors, for the ppl that came. I believe that God will begin to stir in their hearts. Jesus works in wonderous ways :D Continue to use us Lord, for the furtherance of your kingdom :)

Hebrews 12:1-2 says"Therefore, since we are surrounded by such a great cloud of witnesses, let us throw off everything that hinders and the sin that so easily entangles, and let us run with perseverance the race marked out for us. 2Let us fix our eyes on Jesus, the author and perfecter of our faith, who for the joy set before him endured the cross, scorning its shame, and sat down at the right hand of the throne of God." -Amen-

Little Thankyous (for october) :
1. Mei Ling: "mummy", thanks for your constant reminders, to focus on our good Lord :)
2. Meliza: All-time jiemei and spiritual sister- blessed to know you, my dear :D luv u to BITS!
3. TianEn: An inspiration, a motivation; honourably my CF tao. Haha. you'll be amazed how little things in their little ways made a defining difference in my life. Thanks :)
4. Mark (kor): You make a difference in my walk; my spiritual walk esp.All the sharing online, sms, really kept me going.You make my day! Whee...Hang in there! With God, you are strong. "Trade your sorrows for His joy" :D
5. Abel: fallen angel's back :) whee..i got my mango pudding. hehheh :p
6. Serene: A great encouragement, a positive affirmation that God works, God reigns. My guai meimei xD
7. Peggy: A pleasant surprise, god-planned indeed. A spiritual buddy; a sister indeed. Blessed!
8. Felicia (jie): You are my sunflower, thanks for bringing smiles.
9. Fuji: A faithful mentor, never fail to bring joy. Always praying for me, I am touched :)
10. Alwyn: My e-companion, forever sensitive n caring. Thanks! :D

*names not mentioned, i thank u too. God bless! whee...nightss!! (:

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