Saturday, December 30, 2006
15th Dec: Magic Of Love ((:

Open hearts Open minds
Unspeakable wonders
Unexpected miracles
o God, you are THE ONE indeed/.

It was great. fantastic. refreshing. heartwarming. spectacular. much more than what mere words could express.

Of all days..dear lecturer had to end lsn like ONE whole hr late... and my grp was actually the FIRST grp to present.. wad a LONG wait can.. bahhs.. =x oh well.. I was already qyte panickly.. having diff grps of ppl alr waiting for me at diff places.. I so need to fly..

Hungry girls must get fooodd... hahah... so we all still decided to eat at changi Popeye's before the show. ugh..bad bad choice.. proven! Popeye's :)) nice nice.. brought my frens dere.. met the entire grp at T2. So so funnnyyy la.. i was like a tour guide..gathering 14 guys n gals dere. " Everyone, gather gather. Letme do a head count?!?" Haha.. I was so so tempted to just hold a "Follow Me" signboard. Hah!! superrr funnnyyy.. ROFL. =p

Haha.. time's running out. We are happily at T1 at 7.10 when seating at expo was at 7.20!! Bahss... Imagine me leading a grp of gals running all the way; from Popeye's to skytrain, to mrt tn to expo Hall TEN ehhs.. beat that! Hahah.. and dun forget, there were people like me in heels.. Solid la.. x_X Poor them.. we onli reached at like 7.45!! It's free seating.. so we onli managed to get side seats.. but with the big screen, good enough lahh. Hahah. =) Wells.. but we sat in 2 diff rows.. what to do? FOURTEEN ppl ehhs. LOL.

As usual, 2006 " Magic Of Love at Christmas" was better than the prev one. A show that combines drama, magic; a musical as well. It was a blast! To be honest, I am so proud of my pastor, so cool! Haha; like my friend say, he's not young yet he got charisma. Heh! Thank God for the changed lives. Thank God for Pastor Khong and his family. Thank God for the whole production crew. Thank God for the audience- the open hearts n minds. Most importantly of all. THANK GOD. If not for You, this would not even be possible (((:

Thank God who the people who were there, for the show and support- my darlings :D Peggy, Meliza, Daniel, Qimin, Kathleen, Delia, Cheang, Myra, CaiYun, Yenyen, Pingting, Alina and fren. It was really an encouragement and pure joy to have you all (: Esp my gals, great bonding isn't it. I pray that more of this will come in 2007, these will definately help us to bond strongly, esp Bo2 ppl ain't it? hahaha.. i am so so happy.. fluttering fluttering... :D

Also, I thank God for Him seeing me, peg and mich thru out Project CandyX ?!?! Hahah.. u know wad I mean gals =p lol. Through it all, I really see His grace and love for His people. How perfect a planner He is. How he show mere humans like us how each and every step he plans has a purpose; His purpose. All I could do is to stand in awe and marvel at my God; my love :D Thank God for all the sharing, for the open hearts that spoke of love and of trust. Thank you my sister for sharing; I really appreciate it. I believe in the years to come in ech, God will open doors as we 3 work together to share His love, a precious gem, to those around us :D

Girlfriend (:
Words speak, actions prove
in it, held all you wanna say
True, sincere, love and whatnots
that's all I need, nothing more.
Thank God, thank you.
blessings flowed like tears
my heart's call for you/. ti amo

Protect them with Your love, Your grace; protect them Lord.

What?
what is what's not?
what will what won't?
what shields what yields?
what's what? I really don't know/.

Many are confused, enstrangled, stiffled, tempted- Pride cause Man to fall. Lord, shine Your light on us, through us; deep within search our souls/.

I pray for a good closure for year 2006/. pleaseee..

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Wednesday, December 20, 2006
7th dec A beautiful day/.

Beautiful skies, scented air.
Lush greenery, fragrance stays.
thy clouds sing its little tune,
Swift, gentle breeze carried it through.
Nature smiles, it lives.

God's beautiful creation greeted me that morning :)) Wonderous, simplistic beauty of Nature captivated me. No, I'm not a naturalist, just a little girl opening up the doors of her world to let The Light in; lifting up my head, wide-eyed to marvel at God's masterpiece on dear earth :) Once again, God breathed into me :D For that moment, all else fades, it's just me and Him ((:

What do one think of birds? Freedom- its ability to soar; over the mountains and across the seas... its kingship over land and man...its view from above. Such sights, such ability, such authority, such rights.. how can it ever be still?This day, dear Lord said, " Be still, my child. If these birds can, why can't u?" Before my very eyes, sat a big flock of birds, lined up neatly along the borders of a rooftop below me...can u believe it? They were so still that they seem almost inanimate. How can such active creatures be so still? How can they own the wings to freedom and yet not use it? Why can't I, a being with intelligience and self-control; without wings be still?

Yes, Father. I literally see what u mean alr. Thank You for showing me; so real so true. You knew I had to, I need to. If not for this morning, I simply dunno how I could go on...this race of insanity, uncertainty, with humanity. But once again, God shows that He's above all, enthroned and in control. ((: Whee....I love THE bright red unbrella, even more; the handler of it. Hee (((: A shelter over my head, a trusting hand I held on to, an authority above all seasons in life (:

As the saying goes: A friend is one who weathers with you. But, have you heard of one who weathers with you, but yet already places a shelter over you? One who already thought ahead who you, one who sees your needs better then you do? Aww... sighss...I am so in love with Jesus; my best friend. ((: lalalalaA day started right with God and I pray it will go on so...

Met xin at Cathay to watch Casino Royale (: followed by sheparding at Billy Bombers..haha..what a place? but quiet enough la..nice food, great service. Haha (: that reminds me of my encounter with that glass door, I actually rammed into it before.. arghh... the waiter on the other side of the door was rofl la..but even I had a good laugh la...LOL! =p

okie darlings....end it off here~ a very happy, high and tired me.. heh! =p whee...

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Tuesday, December 5, 2006
Mind over Heart or Heart over Mind.

I no longer know what to feel, or how to feel. I do know, I don't want to but I can't. :/ It's so painful to be emptied out each day. Rough patches creates friction, and too much of that wears one out. I long to be happy, to truly be. But, I believe and I will.

"Storms cease for us to praise God and they start over again for us to weather with God"

Broken hearts, broken lifes
He will take them all
Tears, Rants, Groans, Pleads
hear us Lord, hear us.
We long to see the light
We are crushed by our sin
Renew us and strengthen us
for hope is faint.

Life's topsy-turvey; like when u shook a bottle of sand vigorously. Water won't dissolve them, it simply twirls and swirls till u're upside down, and inside out.
Help me Lord, help me, help us, help them I pray....

Incessant praying
Sincere devotions
Willed determination
Unwavering Faith
hear us from heaven Lord, hear our prayer.

StressStressStressStressStress!!!
overload and overtaxed.Academics, family dynamics, fading friendships, failing cg, drained minds, exhausted bodies, broken hearts, broken lifes. Give us strength Lord, give me enerrgy.

LET GO AND LET GOD. (((:
Nothing is greater than to leave all your baggages, and hold on to God firmly with BOTH hands. We will never be forsaken, even if our hands slipped, guess what, His soverign hands lay right below us to cushion our fall. How great our God is, how gracious, how loving.

I can really cry all night, to know that I have such a Father looking at me from above. It's a blessing really, can you all feel it? I know who HE is, HE knows who I am-- eternal relationship that never fails. Luv u (:When we do let go, then we can see what God can do what we can't. Miracles, He specialises in them, really/.

It's not in the doing, it's really in the being. Let them go their way, let them fall and learn, but yet we are just there to pick them up again, opening the palm of our hands, waiting for them to come back again. Just wait, God will bring them back. It pains me, but have I not thot how much more it pains God, to see His own creation falter. Ouchh... sobs.... :((((

I thank God for mark n mel for being there for support, comfort n to encourage me to stay in God's will. I cldn't have done it w/t you two, really. Especially that faithful week. Thanks MELIZA for listening, for ur hugggies n smilies. It warms my heart gal!! Thanks MARK for that evening, for the things u shared, for the words that's said, I cherish every bit of it. and not to forget, the tons of hw u helped me with, despite all tt u are gg thru. Thank God for you. xD and of cos, dearest PEGGY, for journeying and weathering thru these with me. We must press on hard together yea? Jiayou!

*Three words i have for you, three words to stick with you, three words not my own. three and here is it. "Jesus wept" too'. Press on, its alright to not feel smiley and show it, its alright to be yourself, its alright to just feel... its alright when it hurts, its alright to even be numb. you're just human after all.' There's no point in psychoing yourself.. you'll just be more tired... the only help would be that.. you go back to God and rely on that. So you dont have to be strong, just be weak and know His strength, that will carry you thru and be manifested* -kor

A million thanks n Goodnight ('',)

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