Tuesday, September 12, 2006
My very first SPA with God

Rise n shine...it's only 6.30am!! ahh..kill me.. i am so sleepy.. but e mere thot of gg EastCoastPark ltr perks me up :) haha..i simply love tt place..lotsa memories dere-refreshing! bahhs..uber long journey, i alr finish lyk reading dunno how mani chapts of my QT bk. lols. Surprisingly, me being a great lu chi manage 2 find my way dere. Hahas :)

Suppose 2 be a cf thg..but onli fuji, felicia n I cld make it. Yups..but dere's quality sharing in small grp ma..hahs..ohh..n fuji gave me a green beanie bear fm macs. yeahhs :)) okie..tn was too bloated due to double breakfast. lols.

By e sea, while trying to blend into e setting..I juz kan help getting disturbed by e ants benneath where i was siting..while concentrating as Fuji reads Psalm 139; a deep plea for God to search me..deep n within... Split for personal Spa with God.. No ppl..east coast has no beauty salon or wadsoever..

SPA here meaning a time of reflection- Stop, Pause & Apply. lols.Yupx..e pure sounds of nature; the waves, the waters, the wind n e rustle of e leaves has a soothing effect. I reviewed my current life with God..was singing n worshipping him. Beautiful..:)

Then, God reminded me of e motto he has for me this yr: Following God's will. Alas!.. it hit me tt i wasn't, at least nt totally.God encou me with Psalm 27;Reminding me 2 seek & rmb his goodness..be strong n not lose hope..no matter how hopeless circumstances seems now..

HS also showed me," We are hard pressed on every side, BUT not crushed; perplexed BUT not in despair; persecuted BUT not abandoned; struck down BUT not destroyed @ 2 Corinthians 4:8-9. I sld focus on e but's and not juz e superficial surface. :)God's love is unconditional. The path of humility and self-denial leads to healing and spiritual maturity. Peace should be seeked at e risk of rejection, and e trail of humilation and abasement leads to the road of life. :))

Yupx..had a round of sharing..tn my day's reserved for feli. Haha..one dae aft her bdae ma :)) we went parkway parade..shopped ard..had a gd laugh...tn reaslise e whole dumb pl dun hab e kind of shades she wants..sians..haha..tn took lyk an 1 hr bus journey hm..slept thruout manx..shiok..!! lols :)

I thot this marks e end of e dae..but I was wrong, e day had to end wif an exclamation mark!! oh wells..it happened again! e same old episode playing over n over agn lyk a broken record..just tt it seems more real each time. Torn apart once more..brokedown n cried. It was then I rmb my promise to God tt veri morning..how quick e devil return with his act huh...wells..this is indeed one testing i gotta conqueor. *nodds* Wells, with God's grace..we still reconciled tt nite..so thank God :)

Oh.. and special thanks to Mark- my veri own online spiritual encourager!! tks dude! ok..am pretty drained out by all this drama-rama..i go recharge myself le..nightss ^ ^

Are u that insensitive..or am I just not worth it??

heart flutters by @ 11:22 AM