Wednesday, November 7, 2007
Interesting life? I sure think so...

"How long is the road?
How long is the ride?
Ooo...go easy on me..."

What a weekend...From the sorrows to the joys; from the depressed to e refreshed; from the depths where You found me and to the depths which I found You Lord (: It has been such a long and bumpy ride; and guess what? I'm still on it.... >.<

Saturday:
FCBC Prayer Tent day; 1-6pm (:
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Refreshing indeed; timely. I was one of the 8 who signed up for this session. We were given individual tents to wait upon the Lord in solitude. It was a really theraputic session thou; away from this fallen world. I rested, I read, I sung, I prayed; all was for none but one; Jesus Christ(:
I renewed my priorities once again; thinking through life at present...it was like a live playback of everything that had happened recently. However painful or joyful; I know it's all for a divine purpose. However hard it is to accept or to believe; I want to press on and hang in till the end. I want, I must and I will! (:
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Distractions of my destiny; flee...
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Somehow my recent entries seems to be more comprehensible huh? lol. Wells, i guess thou blogs are just an outlet for me to express myself; but sometimes, i need e readers' comprehension as well...For once; I'm not as "chim" as u all pointed out to be..i can cry out n express myself simply too.. No matter what; it's just my style of writing....
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Had a really refreshing talk with Mel at my fav vivo again...I've been going there a little too much...opps. Managed to clear up quite abit of stuff. Let's not based our friendship on assumptions, guesses and all... Want test water also not like that test de ma....done wrongly tn end up poisoning it ehh...tsktsk. But thanks dear really. Sometimes, all i need is that touch; a pat, a smile or a hug (: thanks

Sunday:
It just had to happen, just as I thought life was becoming a little better. Lord, u really teaching me to still focus on You, despite of any circumstance rite? What a challenge. I pray really for Your grace Lord...it hasnt been easy, in fact i admit Lord...it's the exact opposite.
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Met up with one of my really close friend....and that changed it all or rather brought us to another new level of friendship. Mmm...but i dun regret it friend, i don't /.
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It's been hard on u, it's been hard for you.
It's been hard seeing you taking all these so hard...
It's been painful seeing you drift in n out of these drastic life patterns
It's been heart-breaking to see you live life this way...

I am standing right here for u my dear...
don't you ever push me away, dun u attempt to look away...
Selfish request as this may be...but all i want is you to be happy...
for my heart beats for you, and my lips prays for you.
Let this not break us, but mould us and take us to a whole new level..
a new beginning, a fresh start, a trusting relationship it shall be.
No more lies, no more social talks, no more masking it all up..
lay it down, open and accepting; to the grace n love that embrace us all(:

I pray so hard that we may not be the same anymore but we'll be better than before... <3

In view of all the recent happening, i admit i'm taking it too hard already. I can't focus in class, I can't seem to be myself in front of people; my social self perhaps but not me. I know u tried to be more sensitive, but dun feel apologetic that u cldn't sense ath...i dun blame u...i can't expect everyone to be sensitive all e time rite? Though my call for help was ignored or rather have gone unnoticed but I will snap out of this whole __myself. Thanks ppl; especially my readers my friends who noticed how clear I've tried to express myself here. Love u ppl <3

Nights world; library's closing, i gtg. God bless (:


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