Friday, February 8, 2008
Helloies everyone!!

I've officially moved to the below address:

http://scented-love.livejournal.com/

please relink me over there. thanks! (:

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Thursday, December 20, 2007

God's everlasting covenant of LOVE stretches across time, space and mankind (:


It's been so long since I last updated. Once again, there was too much happening to blog abt it. Haha (: But it's been a long learning journey and still on it. I am glad tat 07 is drawing to a close. As I pace back n forth in this reflective phase...so much comes to mind..just so overwhelming. It really amazes me how I've walked thru this yr--emotional rides; heartbreaks, healings, failures, acheivements, the joys and pains; a Higher Love that made all these possible (:

So much to say, too much to write; so I shall keep it in my heart for now (: All i can say is: Thank You Lord, Thank You (: It's been a long journey for me. Crashing waves and huge giants; but it's all in none but the palm of His hand (:

Thank God for the people He placed in my life:
1. My Family
2. My Christian Fellowship dearies
3. My Church Cell darlings
4. My ECH kiddos-- "whities"
5. My HMSS buddies
6. My STC khakis
7. My PJC frenies

Thank God for allowing our paths to cross. In one way or another, you all had played a reli imp role in my life. Without u all, what's left of me? (: I sincerely pray that all of u will close 07 well and begin 08 afresh (: May this Christmas not just be presents and gifts galore, but a time of giving and sharing Love; the true message of CHRISTmas (: love u all <3>

Transitions in all facades of life
All steered for none but One Divine drive
Nothing compares to You my Lord
I surrender my heart again to You.

Come Autumn; leaves fall from thy grace
but fret not; winter grapes are on its way.
Separations; linger no more...
take what's due and leave the hall.

One or two; or even a three?
help me seek only what You see.
However pleasing the he(s) may be,
I still choose to surrender thee.

*sings* "Christmas isnt christmas without toffee nut latte"...haha! peg and I love this version.. but oh wells..of cos it aint just so. It's the warmness of Big Daddy's love that sums it up (:

Haha...i'll post again later bout the recent events. Got to go le...byeeeeee ((:


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Thursday, November 8, 2007


I need a physical hug; a loving healing hugg.
Somebody kind enough to give me? Pleasseee....
I need to believe" when i am weak, You're strong..."

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Wednesday, November 7, 2007
Interesting life? I sure think so...

"How long is the road?
How long is the ride?
Ooo...go easy on me..."

What a weekend...From the sorrows to the joys; from the depressed to e refreshed; from the depths where You found me and to the depths which I found You Lord (: It has been such a long and bumpy ride; and guess what? I'm still on it.... >.<

Saturday:
FCBC Prayer Tent day; 1-6pm (:
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Refreshing indeed; timely. I was one of the 8 who signed up for this session. We were given individual tents to wait upon the Lord in solitude. It was a really theraputic session thou; away from this fallen world. I rested, I read, I sung, I prayed; all was for none but one; Jesus Christ(:
I renewed my priorities once again; thinking through life at present...it was like a live playback of everything that had happened recently. However painful or joyful; I know it's all for a divine purpose. However hard it is to accept or to believe; I want to press on and hang in till the end. I want, I must and I will! (:
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Distractions of my destiny; flee...
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Somehow my recent entries seems to be more comprehensible huh? lol. Wells, i guess thou blogs are just an outlet for me to express myself; but sometimes, i need e readers' comprehension as well...For once; I'm not as "chim" as u all pointed out to be..i can cry out n express myself simply too.. No matter what; it's just my style of writing....
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Had a really refreshing talk with Mel at my fav vivo again...I've been going there a little too much...opps. Managed to clear up quite abit of stuff. Let's not based our friendship on assumptions, guesses and all... Want test water also not like that test de ma....done wrongly tn end up poisoning it ehh...tsktsk. But thanks dear really. Sometimes, all i need is that touch; a pat, a smile or a hug (: thanks

Sunday:
It just had to happen, just as I thought life was becoming a little better. Lord, u really teaching me to still focus on You, despite of any circumstance rite? What a challenge. I pray really for Your grace Lord...it hasnt been easy, in fact i admit Lord...it's the exact opposite.
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Met up with one of my really close friend....and that changed it all or rather brought us to another new level of friendship. Mmm...but i dun regret it friend, i don't /.
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It's been hard on u, it's been hard for you.
It's been hard seeing you taking all these so hard...
It's been painful seeing you drift in n out of these drastic life patterns
It's been heart-breaking to see you live life this way...

I am standing right here for u my dear...
don't you ever push me away, dun u attempt to look away...
Selfish request as this may be...but all i want is you to be happy...
for my heart beats for you, and my lips prays for you.
Let this not break us, but mould us and take us to a whole new level..
a new beginning, a fresh start, a trusting relationship it shall be.
No more lies, no more social talks, no more masking it all up..
lay it down, open and accepting; to the grace n love that embrace us all(:

I pray so hard that we may not be the same anymore but we'll be better than before... <3

In view of all the recent happening, i admit i'm taking it too hard already. I can't focus in class, I can't seem to be myself in front of people; my social self perhaps but not me. I know u tried to be more sensitive, but dun feel apologetic that u cldn't sense ath...i dun blame u...i can't expect everyone to be sensitive all e time rite? Though my call for help was ignored or rather have gone unnoticed but I will snap out of this whole __myself. Thanks ppl; especially my readers my friends who noticed how clear I've tried to express myself here. Love u ppl <3

Nights world; library's closing, i gtg. God bless (:


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Truly I believe (:


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We were the Reason-- David Meece

As little children, We would dream of Christmas morn
Of all the gifts and toys, We knew we'd find
But we never realized, A baby born one blessed night
Gave us the greatest gift of our lives.

We were the reason, That He gave His life
We were the reason, That He suffered and died
To a world that was lost, He gave all He could give
To show us the reason to live.

As the years went by, We learned more about gifts
The giving of ourselves, And what that means
On a dark and cloudy day, A man hung crying in the rain
All because of love, all because of love.

I've finally found the reason for living
It's in giving every part of my heart to Him
In all that I do every word that I say
I'll be giving my all just for Him, for Him
He is my reason to live (:


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Thursday, November 1, 2007
T.I.M.E. - a variable/.

Sometimes time just seems to fly by, but other times it crept along like that of a snail; or maybe even slower...why? It's a matter of perception huh? Emotions and attitudes towards a particular happening does influence how fast or how slow time passes....

Much has happened; but much has also gone unsaid. "So much emotions; but not a word" huh? I guess this explains my case too... I did not deliberately choose to keep silent; it is really a matter of who actually listens with their heart? Maybe I blinded myself with my own smiles; but does it matter when I show? it has apparently proven not/. I know I shouldnt expect so much n indulge myself in all that self-pity, but at the moment; I just need to grouse...so do me a favour, thanks.

So what if you don't support what I'm doing with my life? I see the purpose in every single thing that I do; even if it's beyond your comprehension. You think I don't want to live life the way you wan me to? but I've tasted e goodness of e Lord; how can I forgo it?Call me selfish; one thing I can't forgo is my God! I am sorry for causing you all that trouble, i wish I knew how to be what u wan me to be; but not compromising my principles n beliefs no matter what. I will prove it to u in love that I want the best for u; even if I don't appear to be...it's just hard u know..to please u. Why can't you both see the other side of e coin? Life is a matter of perception; if you choose to think it sux, it will so don't. I know death is not too sensitive a thing to some people; nor is it for me.. but try getting brainwashed by its coming as a daily dosage n u'll get what i mean. Why not use the time talking about death to talk about what you two can do abt your life at present? It's not I don't accept it, but overdosage can be fatal; I'm reaching my optimal stress levels already.. I know I have 2 take up e "breadwinner" role ultimately; but one step at a time ok? I'm reli trying at the very least with my studies... don't tired me out. I need some love when I'm home.. I need that to go on... I am sorry for demanding for this love that I perhaps not deserve for I've shown so little of it myself... I am sorry for my unreasonable rants; I am sorry; forgive me but for one last plea I'm giving; I need to receive some love, some care, some affection. Don't give up on me please...
My family; My loves....

S.T.R.E.S.S.--in all facets of life.

God, i need your air to breathe...please...

The world doesn't revolve around me nor you.In this fallen world, self-centeredness's inevitable. We can't expect the world to stop spinning just bcos of you or I rite? But then again, there is still a God and kind little angels that He sends to make me feel like I'm not alone. At least an act of kindness or an expression of love; is enough to make time stop n let me dwell in its goodness (:

-Separation Anxiety-

I lost count of the number of days, I lost track of time. In fact, i should isnt it? Was it days/even weeks that we just couldn't be e same anymore? Knowing n doing; and even believing is all a separate entity... I am not as strong as I thought I would be; I am more selfish than I thought myself to be...but I am trying. I once said that transparency is very important; but forgive me for sometimes, my heart don't bear to do it. I can't feel ur tiredness but I can surely sense it. I can't relieve ur longing for home, but I can make you at ease. Isn't sacrificial love part of one's humanistic instincts? I happen to be an extremist that's all; it's mine to learn huh? mmm... Someone told me that perhaps, you have emotional needs that needs to be met. But cos of the distict line we've agreed to drawn, it's easier to pull back altogether? I know it's emotionally-demanding on u all these while...辛苦你了... i appreciate it; u're trying to make things easier for me as well; thanks (: honestly...missing you...<3

The haunting past n its memories,
you have no place in God's sanctuary.
Flakes of love and tears of pain,
teach me now, for when I lose; I gain.
Break, Mould, Knead, Craft,
the Potter's hand, i place my Trust(:
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someday i'll know...

The new term has started once again. It is THE sem; make it or break it. With all my priorities in school; it's high time I learn how to manage my time and focus my life. Studies, CF and HMSS is enough to squeeze every ounce of energy n time out of me. If not for my God who sustains me ar...honestly, I would have appeared on the papers by now. Oh wells, how can I survive without food?--spiritual food. Like duhh...famished n weak aint gonna help me at all...

On a lighter note....

I thank God for the Friday Prayer Meetings that simple refresh me at the end of e week (: I thank God for His CF who has grown big and deep; still journeying; still transforming.

I thank God specially for HMSS; which has altogether given me a much deeper and special purpose in my service to them. Not the society; not the events; it's the PEOPLE- my loves<3>Special thanks to Jeremy, Peggy, Melanie, Mingxiu, Jonathan, Manhong and Zoe (: You all gave me the reason to carry on... esp Jeremy and Mingxiu; the people whom God has placed in my heart to pray and care for (:

The end of every year has always been a tough period for me. Reflections n all that reminiscing just made me an "emo-freak"; an unpredictabe one.. Muahah... >.<>

BUT i will SURVIVE! I know i'll come out of all these stronger than before; keep me in prayer(:

Take care friends; God bless (",)


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